Hello, my friends. I sure have enjoyed my hiatus, but I have also surely missed you! What is going on in your 2016? I’d love to know what kind of goals you’ve made and creativity you’ve explored.
I have been gawking over my baby boy ever since 6:18pm on January 13th and I’m still not tired of it. Pretty sure I never will be.
I’m going to go ahead and say, I think it is really difficult to talk about pregnancy and children in a way that honors and considers so many women. I pray that I can be considerate in this atmosphere. Fear of hurting someone with my joy is what stops me from saying many things…it seems easier to be quiet. And that may be well intentioned and necessary at times, but I also don’t want to live in a spirit of fear and I don’t want to withhold glorious things from being said…things that may help and encourage. So, sister, I want to do this well. I want to talk about my experience well…I don’t want to flaunt my joys and give you a misunderstanding of my life. I think that may be the best thing we can do for each other. And if I do it wrong, please correct me. I want to learn how to honor your life and your experience when I am sharing my own.
So, for 7 weeks I’ve been holed up in our home with this sweet child doing all the things new moms must do and knitting and watching Downton Abby otherwise. It has been 7 weeks of learning, being frustrated, being guilty, being elated, and being humbled. And in these 7 weeks I have gotten to spend a lot of late nights and early mornings thinking to myself. I’ve learned that for a long time I have been waiting for life to happen to me; I’ve wasted a lot of time hoping for things, dreaming about them, but never taking an initiative to just begin working toward them. It’s sad really. Fear sucks. Self-doubt sucks. And what sucks even more is that they are self-centered and self-preserving.
I hope you can read these things and not have pity on me, but maybe identify with me. And I hope that you can keep me accountable to live differently.
I’ve come up with several small goals to accomplish this year. And yes, I know I missed the New Years resolution bandwagon by two months, but you will have to forgive me. So here they are:
- Write more short stories
- Pursue learning illustration
- Find my niche in my buisness
- Pursue health diligently
Of course I have higher goals than these pertaining to my faith, marriage, and motherhood, but these are the goals that I had been ignoring…the things I was letting fear and doubt prevent me from pursing.
I know I am not the only one who has been sitting on her hands and preventing herself. What goals do you have for this year? How do you plan on reaching them? I’d love to hear your experience with reaching goals.