I was reminded of something lately that I was in desperate need of remembering. My kind husband told me to enjoy my creating. It hit me as if I had heard it for the first time — though this is something I have had to be reminded of often. We were on an overcast, leaf-lined walk through our quiet neighborhood and, in my typical fashion, I was unloading some concerns that I’d been mulling over for a few weeks. I was telling him that I was wondering if my art was worth my time…was it worth the money, was it worth the effort, was it worth it at all? The problem is that my questions had spawned from too much time spent comparing myself to other people.
And Trav saw straight through my concerns. He realized that my wavering faith was coming from a sentiment of frustration with the slow process of learning a craft. And his reminder was truly a gift to me. In seasons when I am bent on making my art “successful” whether that be monetarily successful or successful by renown, I find myself stuck between choosing whether to create something that will sell or something that I really want to create. I find myself wondering whether I should compromise my personal convictions and do the easy thing. It is a heart of envy and impatience that questions itself in these ways…I hate to admit it to myself.
I wonder if you have ever found yourself in a place like this? — ready to cut corners because you have been comparing your beginning to someone else’s middle? Well, there is hope — because kind husbands, or friends, or whoever you have in your life that reminds you that your art is worth it, they exist and they are telling the truth.
So we have to be patient with ourselves and our practicing. Because one day we will be in our own middle, but without patience we won’t ever make it there. And now that we have been reminded that we are in no competition we are free to create and enjoy our creating.
What kind of things do you like to create? Who in your life reminds you to enjoy your creating? Let me know in the comments.